The Time I Fell in Love and Wound Up With a Broken Heart

There was a point where I thought I'd never fall in love again. Or rather, I thought there would never be a man who would ever love me again...that was until I met *Nick this past April. I had seen his profile on Yahoo Personals and not one for being shy, I emailed him. We hit it off right away. A few days later we had a date without haven spoken a word on the phone. There was just something about him; I knew it without even hearing his voice.

The moment he walked into my house to pick me up for our date, I hugged him just knowing there was something different about this guy. Two weeks later of each day merging into each other, because it seemed, we were constantly on the phone with each other for hours upon end...he told me he was in love with me. No stranger to whirlwind romance, I knew I was definitely in love with Nick.

While this romance only lasted just short of 3 inseparable months (yes I learned what "that guy" looks like that rushes in and right back out) it is a "relationship" that ranks up there as one of the most memorable and really set the bar for future relationships. In that short period of time, I learned a lot about myself and what my "perfect guy qualities" looked like, something I had never truly defined up until this point: trust, respect, humor, fun, equality, loyalty, an emotional connection, love, friendship, understanding, similar interests, chemistry, similar goals, similar values, happiness.

While I can't go into why this relationship ended when supposedly we were so in love (and I certainly was), all I know is that I look to duplicate it (except with a happy ending this time.) I felt I needed to get this post out of the way before 2010 came along simply because I want to put these feelings into a little box and store it away. Just looking at his pictures on Facebook tonight of him and his girlfriend make me sick to my stomach and my heart still hurts (a lot.) But at the same time I feel incredibly grateful to have gotten a taste of what it was like to really be loved again and hope that 2010 will bring love my way...but this time to stay.

*Photo Source: SavageChickens.com